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    A tea-loving, dirt-worshiping circus freak commonly found climbing large trees in a dress and stilettos. A girl finally ready to risk it all and let the world know who she is and what she stands for.
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How NOT to Rob a Bank

 

We parked directly in front of the bank, next to an oversized white bro truck that was very characteristic of the area. Scott, my step-dad, got out and went to take care of whatever business he had inside. I’m not one to spend any more time than necessary in banks, so I stayed in the car and stared at myself in the flip-down mirror of the visor. This is also very characteristic. We had gone to a Cirque de Soleil show a few days prior, and a plastic mask I had been given in the Tapis Rouge tent was on the floor of the passenger’s seat. White-faced with delicate features and a red target symbol dotting the tip of its nose, this full-face mask was beautiful albeit a tad creepy. I placed it on my face and began experimenting with angles in the mirror, as I had learned to do in my mask class (see previous post). The bro in his white truck was on his phone, and he abruptly pulled out of his parking space next to me.

The mask in question.

 I still had my seatbelt on in the passenger seat and had the mask on my lap when Scott stepped out of the bank door. A police officer seemed to appear right before him as he headed to the vehicle, and through a slightly open window I heard him yell, nervously, “Sir, is this your car? Sir, is this your car?” Why do cops repeat themselves before giving you the chance to answer? It’s rude. Scott said yes. As it does in these instances, time moved at a leisurely pace. The officer kept an eye on Scott as I looked around to see an entire squadron of police cars behind me. Cops get bored in small towns, so if something exciting happens it’s like a field day for them. They’re all there, they’re all jumpy, they’re all young and trigger happy. I heard the phrase, “If you move, you will be shot,” and the color drained from my already pale face. Now, understand that I am incredibly afraid of guns. Point so much as a squirt gun at me and you’ll see the results. My knees buckle, I start to cry, my eyes widen and I revert back to my cowering 3-year-old self. “Get the passenger,” was the next phrase I heard, but it was almost inaudible over the sound of the two helicopters that had joined the party. A young man with a loaded M-16 rounded the corner, sight aimed straight at my head. I can only imagine the amount of fingers on triggers of other guns that were aimed in a similar direction. The door was opened. “Get out.”

There was a problem that I couldn’t manage to voice—my seatbelt was still on, and not every one of the officers with their cold, black, phallic firearms could see that.  If I moved, I would be shot, right? I stuttered and said nothing. Slowly, I reached down to my waist and waited for the crack of the gun that would end me. Click! It was the seatbelt. It was off, and I emerged onto the scene. I was not dressed well and I had on a bulky long skirt that I had (ugh) rolled up to make it shorter. Obviously this bulky roll would be the perfect place to hide whatever, so my 14-year-old hips were manhandled by the officer until I was deemed safe. We were not cuffed, instead we were sat on a curb as the bank manager (who knows my step-dad well since they’re both very friendly people) emerges and enlightens the cops on their mistake. Thank goodness, too, or I fear things might have been taken even further. I was scolded for my stupidity, which I readily accepted. What kind of sane person would decide to wear a full-face mask while sitting in front of a bank?

You see, apparently someone had robbed this bank wearing a similar clown mask 6 weeks prior. The man in the truck had called in my appearance to the authorities, thinking that I was an accomplice to the man who had just happily walked into the bank with a deposit slip in his hand. He must have been a terrible judge of body language and quick to jump to conclusions to think that a little girl in the passenger’s seat of a Lexus was going to rob a bank… but that’s how it went, and my mask and I managed not only shut down two banks, but also to gather an entire village of patrol cars, helicopters and policemen.

You can laugh now—both with me and at me.

On the Benefits of Theatrical Masking.

“Man is least himself when he talks in his own person. Give him a mask, and he will tell you the truth.”
-Oscar Wilde

 

When I tell other artists that I prefer to use masks in theatre because of the safety they provide, those artists often scoff and launch into a diatribe designed to make me give up art entirely, because how dare I call myself an artist without being willing to exploit 100% of myself, without danger in my decision making, without risking my entire sense of humanity in order to create a “pure” performance. Apparently those artists speak in ridiculous run on sentences—have you experienced that as well? They just seem to go on and on, like I do. They forget the mask that I mentioned, they even forget that I’m a performer and not a person.  They just spit out these paradigms that they’ve been taught diligently by the private art institutions that their parents so willingly pay for. Safe art is boring, it’s limited, it gives way to little creativity. There is no other way to make art other than to sit on a table stark naked and shove yams up your ass. Right?

I’m here to challenge that notion, particularly as it applies to theatre and circus. I began mask technique at the ripe age of thirteen. It was a mystical world and I couldn’t understand why the masks were treated with such reverence. I was made to enter the studio alone and face over 30 masks. They had human features– a pair of eyes, a nose, a mouth of sorts—but the shapes, colors, profiles and contours of the faces were anything but familiar. And yet, as I met each mask, the reaction I had to each was as unique as meeting 30 different people for the first time. Some seemed to dominate me, others to cajole me, others to make me chuckle or be filled with rage. I’d pick them up hold them level with my face, their blank eyes staring at me. This is the mask in itself.   

Once early humans figured out how to waste less time securing food and shelter, they began to use that extra time to tell stories about how they secured those needs. The skin of a bear was worn over the shoulders, feathers were used for adornment, in some parts of the country a man was crowned with the head of his enemy predator. These were the earliest masks, coverings that man used to shed his own nature and take on another. Man felt an unforgiving need to not only to share his stories, but to take on other character’s roles as well. The second crucial part of mask technique is the actor himself, the man with the urge to tell a story

The third, final, and most subjective part of mask technique is the character. Once I had found my mask to use for the remainder of that class, we set in and spent every Friday afternoon unearthing a character from that mask. Though a series of exercises that encouraged us to “imagine as if it were so”, we began not to decide on a character but instead uncover it. Many of these exercises were physically and emotionally brutal. They were designed to wear us down to a point where we could no longer project our preconceived notions onto the mask, but instead the mask and the actor came together organically and a character suddenly existed. I struggled in this class. My love of making pretty shapes with my body and creating “the best” characters held me back at first, and it wasn’t until one particular grueling exercise in which the narrator of the class led us through a series of frightening psychological exercises (You’re in an underground cave being chased by an unknown evil monster, you can hear it coming behind you and you must crawl forward, the cave is getting smaller, the monster is getting closer… so on and so forth) that I relinquished control to my mask and ended up with a pure and delightful character that I created freely. Physically wearing the mask meant that no one could see the tears streaming down my face or the terror in my eyes as I crawled through the tunnel. All they saw was my mask and my body, my most beloved instrument, “performing” in such a manner that was captivating and present. The mask is the catalyst by which the actor frees himself into a character. The mask is a Rorschach onto which the audience (not the actor) projects the emotions and story that the body is conveying.  Once the actor submits to this, he is free to exist honestly in whatever world that has been created around him. That is the goal in acting, isn’t it?

Masking has certainly developed over time. Early Greek theatre used exaggerated masks to project emotion all the way to the nosebleed section of Epidaurus. In the 16th century the Italians grasped onto the idea, utilizing stock character masks to play out often-improvised scenes and scenarios in Commedia dell’arte. Japanese Noh theatre used intricate masks seemed to change emotion simply by tilting the head. Neutral masking techniques (those plain white masks that are freaky as hell) are often used for movement studies in theatre schools. I would even go so far as to posit that a clown’s nose is just a very small mask that has the same psychological properties as a full or half mask. In cirque we see characters with painted faces, yet another form of masking that aids a performer in honest transformation. Last week I performed my comedic contortion piece for my class. Lately I’ve developed an every day air of understated gracefulness (or so I hope), so I’m sure it surprised my classmates to see me openly acting as an amorous, outlandish French man with a penchant for curvy women. To be honest, it surprised me as well! I gave myself over to that character with such fervor I almost though myself amazing, until I looked closer and realized that all I had really done was use this technique in a minimal way. I created a resting facial positing for him that in no way resembled my own, and I would always return to this position after expressing emotions of any sort. This became my mask, and as a result of that wee bit of safety I was suddenly able to perform with an electricity that I haven’t seen out of myself in a long, long time. Moments happened that weren’t rehearsed or contrived, they were happening to “mon croque monsieur” (translation: my ham sandwich, a fitting name) and he was responding to them organically. That performance inspired me to look back on my mask training and start to understand how it can serve me as a budding circus artist. I do not intend to rehash what has already been done: instead I wish to continue pushing the boundaries that the New American circus movement created for me not too long ago.

Coming back to where we started (remember the precocious artist with the run-on sentences?), I’ll conclude what I always conclude: I’m right and they’re terribly misguided. By giving a man a mask, you are giving him a means to create and show a truth that is far deeper than anything he could accomplish by himself, with his own hang-ups and vulnerabilities.  I would even venture to say that by using this thin guideline of safety we can drive our performances further into that beautiful, dangerous place that is good theatre… and then we can come out the other side without the neurosis that so often afflicts unprotected actors.

Stay tuned for a gut-busting story about a situation my love of masks got me into one day. It includes helicopters and M-16’s, and you should read it.

 

All opinions expressed are my own and have been shaped by my mentors in the art.